Life is strange, isn’t it?

This morning, I was reading over some results from an emotional intelligence test I took yesterday.

The outcome was surprising but also enlightening.

It wrapped up with an interesting message.

“An area worth exploring is whether there are any unconscious beliefs around

·Deserving success.

·Receiving support.

·Being recognized for your gifts.”

This is after a lifetime of work, digging into understanding why I did what I did and the stories I was constantly telling myself.

During the session, the practitioner suggested I had difficulty feeling comfortable with being “seen.” I agreed it was a big lifetime challenge.

As a kid, I was told by a family member that I was not attractive. On one level, I didn’t care because I knew from a young age that we are not our bodies. However, the wound inflicted by those words is always there just under the surface.

This morning, as I was sharing the test results with my husband, I had an AHA moment.

From the time I was a kid, I wanted to sing. I studied voice, became a singer/songwriter, and then, in 2005, was offered a professional recording contract.

I turned it down.

I told everyone that I never saw myself as a professional singer and I had other, more important things to do.

Inside, I knew the truth: I was terrified of being judged.

What if my audience hated my shows? What if they believed they wasted their money on a ticket? (Her music isn’t that good. Why is she even here?)

Then, in 2020, my book, which I had self-published a couple of years earlier, was picked up by a traditional publisher. Let My Legacy Be Love came out in 2021, which was horrible timing. It was nearly impossible to do the necessary work to market the book during the pandemic when everything was closed.

Once the pandemic was over, though, the book was still sitting on my shelf.

I couldn't understand why I wasn't out talking about it.

Inside, I knew the truth: Since the book is about overcoming childhood wounds, I was a little concerned that I would be judged for sharing my story so openly.

Readers might think:

Your story isn’t trauma! I had way worse things happen.

(I didn’t say it was. I call it adversity. I share my story to open readers to the hidden wounds that may be holding them back.)

Why are you whining about something that happened years ago?

(I’m not whining. My intention is to help others grow past their own wounds.)

Your book isn’t even an Amazon bestseller.

(If every book is an Amazon bestseller, is ANY book an Amazon bestseller? Publishers’ Weekly loved it, and that’s enough for me.)

It all sounds reasonable, right?

AHA!

But this morning, as I was talking with Rick, my husband, I felt a punch right in the proverbial gut.

As a kid growing up in a volatile home, I learned to keep my head down—to be as small as possible so as not to be noticed. I didn’t want to be a target.

And all this time, as I’ve been singing, writing, and creating content about living an unconditional life, I believed I was living my life. But I haven’t been.

I have been living my conditioning!

At this moment, I am committing to you and to myself to develop a new, life-affirming mindset.

I deserve to be seen. You deserve to be seen. We all deserve to be seen in our own unique way.

Now is the time to dig down into your patterns and start examining why you stay in toxic relationships, or work for uncompassionate bosses, or take b.s. from your family members. Why are YOU the family doormat?

It’s time for you to let go of conditioning and finally start living your life.

A great place to start is by checking out what I proudly call my non-Amazon bestselling book, Let My Legacy Be Love, A Shortcut to Self-Loving.

There’s a great guidebook in the back that can walk you through determining lifelong habits that are keeping you in your conditioning.

Or you can work directly with me. I would be so honored.

It’s time for you to really LIVE!